another option.

i cant find the picture of PINK exilim-z300. but she is my 2nd baby. who's my 1st baby? vaio cr32. =] and who is my baby?

oh i didnt get my sony T2 cos old model alrd~ they dont sell alrd~ tt made me sad for a while. so gabriel accompanied me to wallk ard to see some other digi cams. then we saw casio.

and ppl, before deciding to buy wadever item u decided on buying, ask the person to check with the ppl in-charge of the stocks in the store if they still have tt certain design or colour of tt product.

wanted to buy this certain model with 9.1mp in pink. paid money then the ppl in-charge of the stocks tell me dont have pink. da bian sia. then i changed to the PINK z300 with 10.1mp, more free gifts, of course, more money luh.

i spent quite some time thinking whether to buy which model until i have no time to go and buy my precious PINK iPod nano. we're gng back tmr aft work to buy it. :)

aft so long, my bloody weak back starts to hurt again when i was bathing. no good. and mummy only knws how to nag n scold at me for doing crunches. like it will cure my back huh. forget it la. wait until she happy then bring me back to the foot massage thr or see the bugis chi physician.

in the time being, no more coffee ice blended caramel and java chips though i only drink them like once every week or 2. no more doing of crunches. no more junk food (cos i cant do crunches to flaten my tummy), which includes fast foods, fried food, oily food, wadeva junk you can think of. but, emilene tan yi ni, you can tahan ma??
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2254 hrs

what do you do when you're so full at night?

blog. lol.

i just went to dig the shit out of my piggy. why? cos tmr is the IT fair. really nv felt so poor before. i regret spending too much of the money on food. its time for emilene tan yi ni, my daddy's bao bei (precious), to open her mouth to ask money frm her one and only daddy. heh.

oh i went to borrow 2 books from library ytd aft movie with gabriel. haven been reading books for a very very very long time. haha. oh about the movie. nice. haven cried for a very long time. LOL.

bth alrd. goodnight.

2321 hrs

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! :(

the dreams. they are corresponding. or are they just coincidence? fucked up. first dream of ppl dying. UNRELATED PPL. i see a dead body under my blk.

recent dream of my love ones dying. i seriously almost lose her.. FUCK LA.

PLEASE TELL ME THE DREAMS ARE JUST MERE COINCIDENCE. NBCB LA.
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2118 hrs

reason for jogging

back frm 2.5 ROUNDS (not km)ard my hse area. the same route. haha.

i have to say that my "how to get fat" logic is correct. youda said he haven been exercising for a year and he became fatter~ see! say i siao some more la huh. wanna get fat but keep exercising AND wanna slim down but keep eating gives the same kinda result which is, YOU WILL NOT GET THE WEIGHT YOU WANT.

anyway, yea. part of the reason i wanna jog is for the sake of my stamina, not to be able to go more sports, but to be able to hold my breath longer for singing. :) think it helps to reach higher pitch and gives your singing more power too? train diaphragm to be stronger. woohoo!



after working on my tummy, i'll be looking out for ways to make thighs nicer. think it'll be very tough. cos i cant even do squats properly. i cant even squat properly! tian ah. lol.



you must be thinking thr is no difference right. see see see. their legs. esp beside the knee cap, the side tts facing each other. thr's no excess meat/fats coming out. these are pretty legs. u see yours you think again if its the same or not luh. LOL. gtg bath then moive alrd. bye! =]

26 August 2008, 1225 hrs

reply to tags :)

jieling - your nano same figure as you, mine same figure as mine ah. LOL. yours slim, mine abit fatter. hahaaha!

youda - ROFL! i've grown up! =p

RUI' - yea. sadly luh. the air con thr cold like hell, i ask them cn off ma. they just smile at me. kns. my hands freeze until no feeling alrd lo. for tt few hours i walk ard the shop shivering. im working at forum shopping center, Twelve21. think we went thr b4. but nv go up the shops. just stopped at mac. haha.

steffy - my poor darling. yes im am super happy tt you've decided to move on. =] jia you!!!! :D. he will die soon la. dont worry. LOL

vitamin C and A is needed.

i realised im quite heaty since the past week until now. have a ulcer under my tongue. pimples poping out when its after the week of the month. so i need more vitamin CCCCCCCCC. vitamin A is for my slight night blindness. heh. so, carrot juice and vege, orange, grape, have to eat more i guess. no body wash or buy for me leh. =p

anyway, met up with gabriel aft work ytd to have dinner at HK cafe. walk n run n chiong from forum to cine cos it was raining heavily. -.- so i had noodles with fish fillet instead of the forever baked rice. haha.

and then thx to gabriel, i finally found a suitable box for the hp pouch i did 97654346278334 decades ago for EVAN's birthday. idk when am i gonna see her man. think can save tt present up and pass to her for nx yr's bday. LOL

work today and i dont wanna rant bout it. very lazy to rant the same things everytime.

so i've been talking bout my PINK iPod nano and digi cam tt i wanted to get uh huh.

you stay thr my precious, im gonna save you from emptiness soon. :)


most of my friends knws emilene is a IT noob. but i guess everyone knws im intending to buy this cam for the sake of its prettiness. LOL. pls tell me if its not tt good. i dont wanna let my piggy DIE unworthy-ly. ):

why my piggy dies? cos my pay is gonna come only at the beginning of each month and the IT fair is frm 28th to 31st of AUGUST~.

talking bout this links to the movie im gonna watch with gabriel tmr. money not enough. haha! this will be like the first time im watching a movie since START OF SCH? wa seh. i missed out how many good movies alrd? and when will i ever be free to watch them online? nvm~

finally i found a companion to jog with me. YouDa! i will slap him tmr if i dont find him fat.

gtg. byebye:)

2307 hrs

A Not So Good Day was ytd.

raining early in the morning tt made me unable to go for a jog. but im lazy myself too la. heh. but i just came back frm morning jog. :)

and then aft i got to work, one of the full timers told me dont keep doin my hair at work cos manager saw THE DAY BEFORE and was telling her bout it. but the thing is, i only did it once, the day before and suay suay she walk pass. why did i do my hair ytd? cos i bun-ed it up~ it got messy cos i have to go dwn to pass the customer her clothes she bought frm twelve21 and of course i have to tie it up right? if not how to face customer? nvm.

yesterday, i was smsing in the room. suay suay manager come in again. btw, she is in the opp shop, kids21. she nv say anything la. but i guess this morning thr'll be full timer(s) telling me "dont keep sms-ing hor. manager saying alrd."

and ard 5pm, my shoe play me. last min spoil. my URS card is not with me. cwp only have heatwave and charles & keith. i dont like heatwave shoes. left with charles & keith. so ex. and i said about not spending money this month~ but in the end i found out one of my full timers have charles & keith card. so i borrowed frm her. but still spent about 32 bucks .

but nvm. i some how like that shoe. if only it wasnt totally black, i'd love it. but i have no idea what colour i want it to be mixed with. so it doesnt matter.

shop earned (round dwn) 6K ytd. gabriel would be smiling when he sees this. unless u forgotten luh. LOL.

i guess i must tahan for the sake of money. unless anyone of you can give me another lobang. at least 6$ per hour. lol.

anyway i've decided to buy the iPod nano PINK colour cos until now, me, the IT noob, know that classic has no pink. yea. laugh all you want. -.- oh im not getting it for the sake of the colour la. ok partly yes. but i though bout it tt i dont need up to wad, 80GB, so much. listen until duno how many songs the batt run flat alrd la. so, yea. iPod nano PINK :)

gng to bath alrd. otherwise im gonna be late frm work again. give me more luck man~

24 August 2008, 0902 hrs

cute pictures.

i found a cute file at work place whr they use it to put idk wad papers. most probably bills.







cute huhhhhh. haha.

today. finally. i met the biggest fear at work. and i touched the biggest fear. omfg. kids with balloons. balloons. BALLOONS!!!!! WTH!!! i touched balloons! why i touched it? because, the kids play n hit it until it fell on the top of the counter and they cant reach. and then, i have to PUSH IT DOWN TO THEM. and i TOUCHED IT! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

they even bounced it on the floor. my heart bip bop bip bop jump. lucky thr's no sharp things on the floor. AND THEN, they tried sitting on the balloon! WAKAO.

i slip behind the wall, then the full timer thr said" u cant stand there! must let cutomers see you. go stand outside go."

lucky they are clever enough to knw tt if they seriously sit on the balloon, it'll burst and they dont want that to happen.

aft tt i forgot wad happen. think im being called to betula cos the full timer thr needs the toilet. yea. then aaft i got back to twelve21, the balloons are gone. thank god~

goodnight. sleeping time.

2239 hrs

A Bad Day To Start With. fuck.

this time round i dreamt PEOPLE dying. they are not NP ppl. not ppl whom are non related to me. i cant clearly temm you who the ppl are okay. 3 of them. ttl, die of cancer. wtf.
ah girl's father. tmd.
my grandma who lives with me and took care of me since im young. @$#%@$#$%&%@!%$@#$!

mummy says dreaming of ppl die, cuts your life but gains theirs. i dont care if my life is cut. it is really nice when they can live longer. so long as these things dont happen, I'M FINE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE.

forcing myself to wake up frm that dream, i realised i was seriously crying. first time ever im crying frm a dream. the next time i dream of my love ones dead, i think i'll be screaming.

seriously, i just wanna tell all my gfs and every friends of mine and all those whom carries the same blood with me and my dearest cousins, relatives, i love you all. <3

22 august 08, 0905 hrs

continued - 21 August 08, 22:50

sometimes i feel that it is just what im supposed to do. sometimes i feel that they are just taking advantage of me.

they have duties for us to take turn to wash the cups, utensils, wadeva. it is not my duty to do it this week. and i am doing it for mon, wed, and today. im off on tuesday. spring cleaning on every mon, wed, fri. im always being asked to do it. and she only clean the places i cant reach. which is like only 3 rails.

okay. maybe it is because im new, i dont really knw the stuffs and i cant help much, therefore asking me to do all these cos they/she is doing most of the impt jobs. but OIE, i am here to learn. and how do i learn? you should be teaching right? if i am so clever and brilliant to learn all the things just by observing, i wouldnt be working here alrd. or maybe it is cos thr're no customers and you're afraid tt i'll get bored and ask me to do these stuffs. highest possibility tt this is impossible.

stuffs not told or explained properly causing me to do the wrong things thus having the need to redo and get lil cuts here n thr all on my precious fingers n palms.

so damn lazy that she cant even get the stuffs she wanna get when she just walk passed it and need me to get for her. some things that chould be done personally by you, you dont do. stuffs like folding of clothes, i fold alrd u see not nice u refold again. wa pianggggg. laugh my ass out la.

idk is it im too sensitive or is it the fact la. i'll knw the ans as time passes. for the sake of money. MONEY~ -.-

finished my rantings. not really. i am feeling very bad for this week. dont know why. making me have the urge to eat alot of junk food again. and i just ate like dont know how much of potato chips, 1 lu/ru dan and 1 fruit. idk wad fruit is tt. mummy says it is prune.

i wanna drink java chips, ice blended coffee caramel, honeydew milk tea, oreo coffee, milo, ice lemon tea, winter melon tea, vitasoy, yoghurt drink, milk tea.
i wanna eat kfc zinger meal, long john silver combo 1, yoshinoya teriyaki chicken set meal, mos burger fish burger meal, pizza hut, pastamania, swensens, nyny, gelare, ben n jerrys, laksa, curry, CHOCOLATE, DARK CHOCOLATE, doughnuts, ba kut teh, black bean soup, stir-fried broccoli, ban mian, and if i really wanna list out all of them, i will never finish typing.

gng to bed b4 i start munching again. goodnight to all!

2330 hrs

relaxing after morning jog (:

perspiring all over now and im waiting for my body to cool dwn b4 gng to bath then work. think i should really take note on my eating. thinking that i've started jogging every alt days, i could eat as much as i want. until now theni realised its a no no for me. haa! for the sake of my flat tummy, i shall take note. lots n lots of notes. rubbish. high in the morning. lol. pardon me.

anyway, i dont know why this week is seriously a restless week. thr'll only be like at most 10 customers a day and at most 5 who will buy. and out of the 5, maybe 1 is tourist which means we'll have to pay them back the GST which means, we earn lesser. i dont really care bout the money they earn la. cos im not getting commission or anything. but seeing the sales not so good i abit sian also. so aft the tired day(s), mon and wednesday, idk whether i should put sweet or nothing-to-do gabriel sent me back to wlds b4 gng home. he says it is because he's got nth to do. lol. no matter what, thx gab!

oh yea, some msn friends asked me if this is my cat.

answer is: no it is not my cat. i just felt like this cat at the point of time when i feel tummy is as big as his/hers.

i wonder if they'll see this anw cos i dont think they'll be visiting my blog. lol

oh yea, here comes the good news!
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emilene will be able to celebrate her very own girlfriend's birthday! cos im given off on tt day.
but i'll be earning 12bucks less cos im being asked back to work on tuesday aft my piano lesson in the morning 10.05 to 10.45 and i'll be reaching orchard at like 12? think i'll ask if i cn reach at 12.30 cos i wanna have my lunch first maybe. cos if i go to work at 12, i wonder if they'll pay me the half an hour pay. LOL. emilene is very "gey gao" idk how is it said in eng when it comes to pay. mummy la. keep asking me to count until it has become a habit for me.

for this month until 28th aug, im not gonna spend any unnecessary money cos im gonna save as much as i cn for the IT fair tts gonna be held on 28th to 31st. im gonna buy my PINK digital cam and PINK iPod classic! i told mummy and she laugh at me asking me, so you got no money now and who are you gonna lend frm? i was like, duno leh~ but i think both of us think the same answer. mummy: frm me la then. me: frm u la then. HEHE. but see how much i cn save first la.

okay i've cooled dwn and am gng for my bath now~ omg. its alrd 8.15! i gotta go off at 9.15! byebye!!

21st Aug 2008, 0815hrs

Continued - 19August 2008, 1335 hrs

oh this song is damn nice i feel. cut away the "lie to me" part tt is. i heard it frm Twelve21. my msn nick " are you strong enough to be my man? " was gotten frm this song. and some guyfriends of mine answered me "i am strong enough!" anyhow one by one.

anyway, pics can be uploaded finally! enjoy!

the BIRTHDAY GIRL is in the grey BLUE... wad? dressing? yea. dressing. =] i love to see ppl gaining weight! but you are fine. really. <3>

idk wads this about really. haha









it says "from: net; to: lene<3" do you still rmb it net? haha! i dug it out from my purse outta boredness during wory ytd. still cant figure out how to fold. -.- but nvm.

1425 hrs

i see TAI TAIS at work.

see my title of the post and you think the shop is really busy serving all the tai tais. but its seriously slack until can rot over there. sales aint very good. and there'll always be something to eat there. and there's this opponent whom i've met, finally, who keeps asking ppl to eat. so how many of you think emilene tan yi ni can stand temptations? LOL.

my off day is like 1 day a week only and it is every tuesday cos i have piano lessons in the morning. and i realised one thing which is sept the 3rd is my SOMEBODY's birthday which lies on wednesday but im working tt day. =X come find me tt day la. my birthday ma. heh.

oh its such a nice weather to go dwn for a run now. back to post soon! =] in the meanwhile, you can have a look at the nice pictures. =]

bloody blogger has errors uploading the pics. nx time maybe.

19 Aug 2008, 1217 hrs

very irritated.

skilled.

forever that face you see. lol.

smile!

you are not seeing things that emilene's face have grown meaty-er. i admit. sadly. i dont wanna be fat. =[ actually. i just want my tummy to get flat. the rest i dont care. but of course, every part is linked! like u ever seen a fat mummy with flat tummy? so, yea. im gonna carry out my diet plan. again. yes. will tell you all how is the plan aft i see results frm it. na mo ah mi tuo fuo pu sa bao you. dont worry about my (cute chubby pinch-able soft flexible/stretchable bouncy) cheeks. they will never go away. i can confirm that. haha!

but if GUYS wanna knw hot to get fat, i can teach you.
1. eat your normal meals.
2. eat JUNK FOOD in between.
3. eat flour based food like white bread, biscuits, muffins, yellow noodles.
4. eat non stop.
5. last and the most important one, DO NOT EXERCISE for 1 MONTH.

you must be thinking "you siao ah! dont exercise will die leh!" if that is so, then how do fat girls survive? no offence girls. :) logic la pls. dont say i siao. if you SKINNY guys are unable to do so, then do not complain that you dont grow fat. i'll bite your head off ah. but, erm, if you tried it out, and seriously you dont gain weight, i've got nothing to say la. you win lor.

anyway, back to talking bout the photos, i only have these 3 and only 3 photos with me on my birthday. lol. send me all the photos pls. its stella's bday la. not mine. haha

and ytd's first day of work, im really bored and tired. it really is meant for tai taissssss to go only. imagine a 12 yrs old kid's dress at the price of S$500+. faint. but all branded, made in Italy, UK, USA, Germany. so, yea. worth the price la. faint. seriously, i wonder if i am able to tahan this job for even a mth. but for the sake of money, i hope i will. emilene will prove she is not a princess who cant take even a bit of hardship. :))))

work tmr. -.-

1925 hrs

result of boredom

i got this frm jingfen's blog. lets see how much i've got.

[Dr. Phil's Test]Here goes:This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today. It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees.

Q1.When do you feel at your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon and early evening
c) late at night

Q2.You usually walk.....
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

Q3.When talking to people, you...
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips or in pockets
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, touch your chin or smooth your hair

Q4.When relaxing, you sit with...
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

Q5.When something really amuses you, You react with...
a) a big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

Q6.When you go to a party or social gathering, you...
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

Q7.When you're working or concentrating very hard, and you're interrupted, you...
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

Q8.Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

Q9.When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep, you lie...
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

Q10.You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something for somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f)

1 Over 60 Points: Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen asvain, self-centered and one who is extremely domineering. Others mayadmire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you,hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 to 60 Points: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, one who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 to 50 Points: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 to 40 Points: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

21 to 30 Points: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of themoment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

Under 20 Points: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs lookingafter, who always wants someone else to make the decisions and who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

2100 hrs

LOO LA LA LOO LA LA LOO LA LOO LA LEH

loo la loo la loo la leh~

holiday offically starts! feel weird now that i dont have the feeling of oh my gosh how am i gonna figure this out myself because i never listen in class due to the stupid tutor who blablabla~~~.

overall for the 3 papers, i think i'll not do well for FSP. cos tts the only paper i left blanks. upon 50 marks, 20 is the max i'll get i guess. COS and BS, is all left to wait. BS BS BS!! i wonder if im able to get 90 upon 100? i have this feeling i'll have alot of careless mistakes which will leave me with the most, 70 marks upon 100. =[

anyway, i'll start work on monday! =] for this 2 mths, i just focus on piano :))))), and go to work so that money rolls in my pocket. and they will fly out from my pocket in exchange of new stuffs for me. *blink *blink *blink! more stuffs to be added to my shopping list. check it out yo! lol. influenced from jin wei.

ohh yea. sunday is coming. MEMORIES will be meeting!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE
whats happening? i dont feel me...
2044 hrs

RRRAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! GIVE ME FOOD!

i am so stressed up that i want to eat more and more and more. and i am eating more and more and more! im soon gonna get so fat and so ugly and i am gonna walk ard with my chins up parallel to the ground, chest up, tummy in, bums out and walk the cat walk style being so proud of myself being fat and ugly and disgusting.





i am just kidding. who the hell would want that? oh my tian. but i am seriously feeling fats growing all ard my body eversince i step into poly. why huh? i think i knw the ans.

monday's FSP test. today's COS test. SIAO LIAO LA! seriously, i feel screaming into someone's ear. whose? the tutors'. LOL.

so fast and it's 2200 hrs alrd. i haven done my BS revision worksheet. i dont wanna die even for BS. which test is this friday. whr the hell has all my confidence gone to?? RAHHHHHH! BYE BYE.

2200 hrs

hugging the buddah's leg.

so after staying up late for the past 2 weeks, emilene is finally sick like shit. suffering from everything except fever, like always. i'll see if i shed any weight after im well. but i doubt so i will cos i kept munching on junk food despite being sick. oh well.

rushing through pprojects then followed by last min chiong for test. RAAAAAAA...

oh and kai shi introduced me to forum to wrk. money is rolling in to emilene! gonna start wrk on 11th.

i am so sleepy~
i wanna drink bubble tea. i haven been drinking it for as long as my back problem lasted which is ard 4 mths! i cant drink cold drinks............... but seriously, do you think i care? rofl. okay. maybe just that much.

i want to see my memories..

1st August 2008 1200hrs